days like this i don't know what to do with myself, all day & all night. i wander the halls along the walls & under my breath i say to myself, "i need fuel to take flight."

went to the state park with alayhas, marina, & emily this afternoon. wow is it beautiful. we climbed all about & got some quality pictures. good times with bare feet alright. anyone who comes to visit me this yr has to see this.

argh, it's apparently 40 some degrees here right now. what the h?

i don't feel like thinking right now.

hurrah hurrah... kim & i decided that it's easier for guys to be entertained. video games, sports... these things don't interest girls. if ur nails r all painted then dude, ur outta luck. this evening we were like hmm... what to do, which sucks. personally, i wasn't ready for a 3 day wked already. ha, we didn't earn it yet, & things aren't in swing enough for there to be one. in a month, i'd certainly appreciate it more. rah rah

kate told me that i should have a column in buzzsaw. apparently it's the alternative magazine she's running this yr. i suppose i shall check it out, cuz hey, that could be fun. oh right, & theoretically that's what i want my job to be... when i have my multicultural family that is. man, i'm gonna be po' fo'eva

i think i'm turning into an adolescent boy. my voice keeps cracking & i can't sing right. it's kinda fun i guess. combine this with my apparent breast obsession & whoah buddy, look out!

went to the boy's apartment tonight. hawaiian pizza! i was excited. 4 pieces yo. i think that's a record for me. holla.

abby says i'm cheeky. cheeky- impertinently bold; impudent and saucy. ooh baby, i'm sauc-y ;)

3 day wked... ohh who knows what tomorrow shall bring...

oh man... well today started out feelin' kinda bleh, but it ended on a high. kim & i r a heck of a team yo. we decided to take it upon ourselves to befriend the second floor. this evening we met marvin (dan), sam, & hugo. ha, oh & messaya. he's from zimbabwe, but it's fun to call him messiah. we told them all that we own the building. sam & hugo's room smelled kinda rank, so we tried to help em out with that... oh boys. then we left poor karl's air freshener stranded in their room. we also apparently inspired marvin to hang up all the nice dress shirts his mama bought him. plus we got to turn everyone on to the wonder that is late night. oh yeah. they seem amusing enough, ha, & kim told them that they're already cooler than our other guy friends. oh oh! sorry ben

hmm... only one class tomorrow. bleh, but it's spanish. i dunno why i do this to myself. cray-zee

dedication:
KJlove125: do you have milk in your frig?
KJlove125: do you have milk in your frig?
KJlove125: do you have milk in your frig?
KJlove125: do you have milk in your frig?
KJlove125: do you have milk in your frig?

so... first day of classes. mine dont start till 11. makes me feel like a slacker... but in a good sort of way. oy, my first class lasted about 5 minutes cuz the professor apparently had a medical emergency. aaand it's cancelled on friday. well well. colleen said she was in this class with me, but alas, she is a dirty liar. jeremy is there though. he may be that kid that yaks but hey, at least he's not a dirty liar.

spanish... scary. i don't know why i do this to myself. already julio started telling us about how his children are sad because they have no papa. apparently his relationship with his ex manages to permeate the classroom walls often. well then.

finally, writing. ehh, doesn't seem so bad.

so, i always refer to chicken pot pie as chicken pot, chicken pot, chicken pot pie. it's a "just shoot me" reference. when colleen asked me what was for dinner, i responded as such. this dude in front of us totally laughed at me. ha, so i totally called him on it. he was all i wasn't laughing at you. & i was like bitch please *shakes head*. well, actually i was much nicer than that & everyone was all hahaha, but hey, u get the idea.

bitch, pleaaase

ha, this is random:

Geri AKA Ginger Spice
You are bossy and rather naughty


Which Spice Girl are you?
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well gee ya know, kiehl *has* billed me as a "slore". good to know.

ha, & ps- let us all check out rachel's comment from yesterday. (you should comment too, foo)

ya know, we really shouldn't hafta go to classes. we do pay to live here. - marjani
& so tomorrow it begins....

so today i'm leaving the bursur's with kim & this guy holds the door for me. ok, nice, fine. but then he put his hand on the small of my back, ya know, in that here honey let me guide u sort of way. no clue who he was. ...who does that? he didn't know me... i just thought it was random enough to share. ha, i wouldn't do that. even if i were a dude.

this evening was rather amusing. got to spend time with a bunch of folks, rocked the hot new dining hall set up with abby, kim, ben, jules, & jeremy. holla. jeremy wants to come back to college as an old man... and do drugs. then he wants to die, in his dorm room. now that's a life goal alright. sing it. ya know the boy finally comes back to school & he's already talking about dying... i dunno man

you have a very quirky room -my new neighbor...
& alas, the decorating is through. i'm quite pleased if i don't say so myself. i go beyond posters yo. serious business.

i just got back from marina's swingin' new single right across the way. holla.

currently i'm finding myself with a ton of emotions at once. hurrah hurrah. yeah school. i suppose all i can say is bring it.

oof. i've spent a buttload of time working on my room today. i've certainly tried to make it look as different from last yr as possible, & so far, the crowd is pleased. *yawns* having it feel like my own again will make me feel better. it's still weird to be here... some ppl say it's as if we never left. but ehh, that's not true. i mean, i've been getting along with friends as well as if we hadn't... but i for one am certainly aware of the absense. sigh.

the internet is back, in my building at least *does a little jig*. i'm not sure why exactly AIM 24/7 is a must, but without it, we were all so lost. sigh... again

oy, lotta freshmen. i feel as if i've unintentionally become cynical towards them. i mean when i was one, i didn't think we were as easy to pick out... ha, but yeah, they are. i've heard some incredibly stupid questions come by. we had a building meeting this evening in which kim, abby, & myself perched ourselves upon a couch in the back. i felt as if i should be black clad & smoking heavily. it's like it comes so naturally, it's almost frightening.

double sided mounting tape is a great thing. i highly recommend it.

ok, sadly, i'm tired already. my brain feels weary... too much decorating, too little going out as was initially intended. sigh (3rd time). 'night ma childreN.

& in the spirit of it all...


Princeton
You're smart, you're thin, you're pretty, and
goddamit, people love you. You are destined for
great, great things, little Princetonian. Let
there be a never-ending stream of Country-Club-
Like institutions in your unmarred future.


Which Ivy League University is right for YOU?
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you don't have an ass. daddy doesn't have an ass. -my mom

so i'm back a la escuela! *teeheehee* internet's not working in my room though :/ so no AIM. sorry kids. it's odd to be back here... same faces, same fun... yet different. oy, the boys have an awesome apartment. we didn't wanna tell em, cuz ya know, they're them... but it's nice alright. ben said he loves me! let's hold onto that one. he also said that we can come over whenever we want... ha, as long as we help cook. he enjoyed the fact that kim & i were barefoot in his kitchen. oof.

ha, i have yet to unpack my clothes yet. i should really do that... sigh sigh sigh. we have a meeting tonight. i'll finally get to meet the new T2. holla. we shall see... we shall see indeed...

peace out cubscouts

i'd own a midget -mike. ugh, i left a book i hafta mail to kansas in his car :/

alright... today did suck pretty hard. i mean, i ended up doing stuff, just not anything that had been initially intended. my biorhythms must be twisted or something. in general, lately it seems as if time is not in my favor. in the beginning, it felt like the summer would last forever, now suddenly i'm headed back to ic in the morn. whacked. i keep telling myself that i only feel this way because i'm in home mode right now. school is cool, i love u all, but oy... right now...oy. not having been at work has been extremely cool... getting to spend time with those i love... ha, & meeting someone amusing when u have but a few days of availibility... what up world. what up indeed.

the summer wasn't awful or anything though. it's good to know that ur best friends really are ur best friends, not that i doubted this, but still. being away for months doesn't have to change people, or places, or feelings. just looking back on the past yr... so much has changed, & yet so little. 3 cheers to new experiences, cuz with sophomore yr on the horizon, ooh baby r there more to come

peace out cubscouts, see ya soon ic loves ;)
*MWUH*

i've been home for months. suddenly today, the last day, everyone needs to get a piece of this. ironically enough however, i am currently going NOWHERE. why do ppl suck so hard? last night, the rain was stalking me, today, absolutely every plan ever made has found a way to fall through. i must seem like a total schizo. awesome. i think i'll go the the post office.

i guess i've been busy... teeheehee

i have to start packing today. i loves me some ic, but right now i loves me some home as well. why r u fucking with me time? why time, why? grr. that is all i have to say

ps i think i went to second with a dyke. dr dyke, that is.

ha, now i've got u wonderin'...holla

oh will, parents just don't understand:
my dad: yourmom? what r u looking at yourmom for?
me: yourmom.com, it's where my email is
my dad: what? ur not a mom
great, now he thinks i've been knocked up.

so... we have no water. sexcellent. mike (who's the best) & his plumber boss r coming to fix it in the morn'. oh sigh. no water ain't cool at all. i just might be coming to a shower near u ;)

hurrah. went to the mall today & OH bought some underwear. if i had to declare an addiction, i'd seriously say it's to underwear. there is no reason in the world that i need more of it. this time we rocked la senza. apparently it's the big thing in canada. i dunno, it's nice i guess, but i'm still kinda scoff scoff about it since it's not vicky's. good golly, not only am i an addict, but to a brand name... oh sweet satins & mesh prints, what have u and all ur demi goodness done to me?

ok, here's an email. we haven't done THAT in a while...
TOP 10 SIGNS THAT YOU KNOW IT'S TIME TO JOIN E-MAILERS
ANONYMOUS

10. You wake up at 3 a.m. to go to the bathroom, and check your e-mail on the way back to bed.

9. Your firstborn is named Dotcom.

8. You turn off your Computer and are suddenly filled with a feeling of emptiness, as if you just pulled the plug on a loved one.

7. You spend half of a plane trip with your laptop in your lap... and your child in the overhead compartment.

6. You decide to stay in college for an additional year or two, just for the free Internet access.

5. You find yourself typing "com" after every period.com

4. You refer to going to the bathroom as downloading.

3. You move into a new home and decide to Netscape before you landscape.

2. You start tilting your head sideways to smile. [:-)

1. Immediately after reading this list, you e-mail it to someone.


oh man. yvone? back at ic? they've got my asian. *snaps a pencil in half* now i am officially jealous.

today i stumbled across an article on pop star's lack of grammar. "I can't get any satisfaction" would be correct, but it is utterly without soul. To be grammatical here would be to write Muzak instead of music. It would be completely unsatisfying, not unlike the Britney Spears cover of this same song. bashing britney? awh, well who doesn't enjoy that? check it out

Every blade of grass has its Angel that bends over it and whispers, "Grow, Grow"
--The Talmud
awh, a cute visual, no?

peace love & cheddar* kiddies
(*cheddar can be substituted for rice for the lactose intolerant)

i smell like a dog -smarcus

today i went out to lunch with cat & sarah. yeah ladies. i miss them when i'm gone :( good ol' karl IMed me earlier though to say that the world of ic is still stunning & great to get back to. certainly good to hear, since now home wishes to tug at me heart strings, arrr.

home also inspires me to be a pirate, apparently.

dana cares. dana is a carebear.-rachel
i'm not a carebear... i have genitals-dana
my mistake-rachel

sarah & i ran into mrs kaicher in a&p. awh, she's so darn cute. she says we always look so happy. ha, no, there is no wedding date set.

ha, so it's funny to read the away messages of all the college newbies. orientation fun & such... oof. it's funny how one yr away can make u feel like such a veteran.

ehh, my body kinda hurts. just in general, let's go with that. necessito un "massage". hmm... i haven't done the whole random picture search thing in a while. let's look up massage shall we. maybe they'll be hot asian porn involved! wahaha.

ohhh i'm just joshin' *slaps at ur shoulder*


does anyone ever really drink champagne out of high heels? i just thought of this...


ha, is that a back? i can't really tell...


awh, haha, baby massage...


somehow this looks more like murder than love


alright, goodnight my darlings *mwuh!*

kat cheers that the boys r u-g-l-y. little red haired boy says:
well the one in the blue shirt isn't that ugly -aka pic. ha, such a moment.

if u ever play spoons (the card game), try chanting at ppl when they mess up. threaten them with the spoons. it works wonders for the game.

yeah, so today i woke up way b4 i actually decided to get up. my first official day off, i wandered downstairs around ohhh... 1:30. shortly thereafter, kala & joey called me. suddenly joey's grad party is uh, now. what a fruitcake. it was cool to see ppl, overall. watching joey burn hair over a bug repellant candle? ehh, not so much. then kala & i busted out for some dq, & to talk about the perplexing wonder that is dealing with the opposite sex. this is what girls always end up talking about, u must realize. the moral of the story is virtually always that they're stupid... but hey girls, we let them in our heads repeatedly, so who's the wiser? ha, stupid boys. let's just leave it at that, shall we?

kat & kala want to have a tag team visit this semester! that'd be hot yo, though i don't know where i'd stuff em. kat wants at ma school though, so it'd be coo. i def would like having more visitors this semester. just in general, there are things i already know that i want different. i want to actually make more of an attempt to be involved. though i always felt rather busy, i know i can be busier, & i'm a freak like that, i like being busy. i also wanna exercise. *gasp* i know. yvone, i read of ur plans to go kickboxing with kim. i went to one class last semester, i'd be up for more. ha, it's for the best, & doing it with friends makes it easier to come by. i achieved my goal of not gaining the freshmen fifteen while all the while not doing anything, so now it's time to not be a lazy ass. after all, i shall be a sophisticated moron, u see. word.

"Singer Carly Simon is auctioning off the secret identity of the person she's singing about in her song 'You're So Vain,' but the winner has to sign a confidentiality agreement to never reveal the secret. Who cares?! I'd rather know 'Who Let The Dogs Out.'" -Jay Leno
ok, who let the dogs out was awful, but seriously carly, it's not the 70s anymore.

thank u for ur comment jules! ha, no one is utilizing that thing. the dixie chicks r fun. it consistently amuses me the outfits they find that gal. i mean she's not fat per se, but u also wouldn't think it'd be so easy to come by a bandana plentiful enough to simply tie around her as a top. oh nashville, thee hath found a way.

oof, here's a horrible story. ha, sit tight boys:
KUALA LUMPUR, Malaysia - Police in Malaysia say a man cut off his own penis and then fried and ate it. They say he had taken hallucinogenic drugs that caused him to hear voices urging him to mutilate himself. A police spokesman says the 34-year-old man took the drugs before he went to bed Friday night and heard the voices when he woke up. He didn't realize what he had done until he saw the blood. The man had recently been released from a drug rehabilitation center. Malaysia's national news agency reports he's hospitalized in stable condition.
ehh...

oh- and last night, grandma stayed up till 2am to finish watching a kevin bacon movie. is that not priceless? *shakes head in wonderment*

earlier i checked out zee blogs de col & suds. i was like damn, they're back. that's whacked yo. we're on the brink of it all... word up

hark- more fun with IM
jen's bro: i took piano lessons when i was 7
b: i can play merry had a little lamb
me: niiice
b: with one finger
me: ooh, smooth
b: and i only usually mess up once
me: *fans herself*
b: I thought that would turn you on
me: only once?
b: once if im lucky
me: ooh baby
yeah man, rock on

sigh. i am saddened. today, jen painted a monkey, a happy monkey mind u, on my arm. she was painting ppl to raise money for MS. i attempted to cover him in plastic while i took a shower, but alas, it did not work. my monkey is no more : (

last day of work... ehh, i can deal with that. but now i don't know what to do with myself cuz i didn't exactly make any plans. go me. let's do it kids, let's make plans. yeah!

oh yeah- ootc marina ;) ha...

ok, here's a less obscure quiz...

Your: Happy eyes! Your cheerful, bright and always
want to try something new. Your inquisitive and
quite lovable. You have many friends and will
succeed in life.


What type of eyes do you have?
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"Agents in Hollywood say that Winona Ryder's career could be hotter than ever after her well publicized trial. Immediately after hearing this, Emilio Estevez went out and stole a car."
-Conan O'Brien

i made brownies today. yeah brownies. baking makes me feel like such the suzie homemaker. btw- rachel decided that i'm also going to have an inuit boy & a latino boy in my multicultural adopted family 'o' love. the latino boy is gonna end up gay though, cuz hell, one of them will. ha, so currently i'm up to 5 kids. only 2 of them will be of thy womb, but still. i'm gonna be busy yo. get that minivan ready. (ps- the other child is an asian girl in case some of u are behind on this master plan).

today i dl'd some michelle branch & jason mraz for whatever reason. i've been feeling poppy lately. this song sticks in my head like nobody's biz. (thank u guitar rip)

Desperately- Michelle Branch

There's something 'bout the way
You looked at me
Made me think for a moment that
Maybe we were meant to be
Living our lives separately
And It's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately

Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately

You looked my way, you said "you frustrate me"
Like you're thinking of lines and times when you and I were you and me
You took our chance out on the street
Well you missed my chance and chances are
It won't be coming back to me

Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately
So desperately... ho

Oh, I cannot ignore it,
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
'Cause there was something 'bout the way you looked at me
And it's strange that things change when I've been wanting you so desperately
I want you so desperately, oo oo oo

I keep giving in,
But I should know better
I keep giving in,
But I should know better
So desperately
I want you so desperately

i'm not a huge fan of hers or anything, but i dunno, i've been feelin' the both of em lately. holla.

alright... i've gotta get up for work in like 6 hours :/ last day though *tear tear*

my mom: ur not even talking about what i'm talking about
grandma: i'm talking about boobs!

this morning i awoke to the sound of my mom frantically trying to dial 911. there was yet another accident at the end of my street. apparently, all the neighbors called though, & no one seemed to be hurt badly, so that's good. i mentioned that they should put up a sign to say look before u cross fucker... rachel decided that this would be stolen too often. i agreed that hell, i'd even steal it.

as i looked from afar at the mass of ppl which had formed to huddle about the scene, i saw my past stalker. ha, i so forgot i had a stalker. this kid who lived like a half block away, who was 2 yrs older used to harass me all the time my freshmen yr. when he saw me in the hallway he'd put his arm around me & ask how his gf was doing. he'd tell me that he knew all about me, & all about my family. yeah, he was creepy. i heard footsteps outside my window a few times at night & my mom was like ok, one more thing & we're making this known. i can't remember what i said to him one day though, but he finally toned it down. eck, that was messed up. i saw him & i was still like eek- hide! ha, then i stopped & thought about how it was weird that i'd forget something like that.

so uh, power outage, eh? when i got to work, it was out... thought perhaps i'd driven there for the hell of it, but alas, it came back on. blame canada alright.

i got some pictures back today. don't worry, doubles r in order. ha, there's one where i look totally wasted, though i was not. but hey, there's one of those in every batch. sarah says it didn't always used to be like that. she claims to remember a time when i didn't act like a crackhead... though agrees that our prom pictures (in which i do) are rather priceless. oh, & in one kim & marjani are flashing the camera in the background. oh yeah ladies, take it off. but yeah, pictures, nostalgia... school is on the not so far horizon.

i keep getting 'the remedy' in my head. holla.

gah, it's cold in here. take a quiz to get hot... or something. i mean let's face it, it's molly frickin' ringwald.

You're Samantha Baker from Sixteen Candles!
I can't believe I gave my panties to a geek!


Which Molly Ringwald Are You?
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oh, & here's a baby getting kicked.

you look like a dog -grandma (i was sitting in the same place the dog had been earlier)
later on...
-u called me a dog -me
-no i didn't... (laughs) oh that's right, i did.
-see that, grandma called me a dog. one time she called me cheap, too. thanks a lot.
-hey cute butt!
-what?
-did ya hear me? i said, 'hey cute butt!' (laughs some more)
oh grandma... oh grandma

gah to ms blaster! i read that as many as a million ppl have been hit within the past 2 days. if u've got it, i feel for u. this will get it out of ur system, & send u to the patch. god awful thing. special thanks to ryan & abby for the inside info. thankfully, i was able to free kim from the horror with this new found knowledge, ha, & in turn, make ben feel stupid... which is of course, always entertaining.


Power Rangers Movie!


What movie Do you Belong in?(many different outcomes!)
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Power Rangers... beat that sucka

awh, my comment thing is currently temporarily offline :/ i can see that i have 3 comments though. ooh la la... such things to look fwd to. yeah kids. yeah comments.

yeah, so speaking of error messages... it struck me as i was blogging last night- hence the premature departure. argh, so my other computer, my *real* computer, apparently has a virus. make sure you update microsoft! oy vey. i've been trying to dl the patch but my computer keeps, what do ya know, shutting down in the meantime. seriously not cool... oh dear sweet technological baby, get well soon!

maybe guys r stupid cuz it gives girls something to talk about... & maybe girls r stupid cuz it gives guys something to talk about. & to think, one is always wondering what the other talks about...

ay, school is certainly approaching. tomorrow is my last 9-5 register shift... can't say that i'll be missing that... at all.

i watched "the royal tenebaums" last night since OH i have the dvd now (which is so cute mind u). ha, dude, a priest falls down the stairs. somehow i had forgotten this from the first time. that's probably the hardest i laughed throughout the whole thing... i'm not evil, it was just funny, cuz dude, a priest & stairs? who would do such a thing? & to say that u have been cast as the priest who topples down a flight of stairs? priceless. truly priceless.

yeah, so i'm attempting to get this comment generator thing working. in the meantime, my computer keeps sending me error messages & shutting down. excellent. these best not be related issues...

oy, under 2 wks now... messed up

i ran into danielle at the mall today. it was random cuz i just had a dream with her in it the other night. i got a new job & she was there to help a brother out... yo.

you have a cute butt -meg ( she too is now a blog lover ;) heh)

this evening we rented bringing down the house. for all the hype involved i expected it to be... how u say... funnier? betty white's character is quality though- i thought i heard negro! can't get enough of them crazy old ladies yo.

tomorrow i hafta go to the dr to get shot. score, no?

word.

today i heard doo wop (that thing) & got lauryn hill all up in my head. i find the ex-factor, forgive them father, and when it hurts so bad to be some quality non-singles from the miseducation of lauryn hill. good stuff yo. check it.

so... i'm attempting to add a comment generator. --a work in progress-- let's see how (& if) this works... send me a comment, foo

& conan reveals the new state quarters:
arkansas- the last s is silent, just like our women
complete with etching of submissive chick & stern, overweight, tatooed man
ha, this quarter would be priceless

hmm... stuff.

yesterday laura & i went to the mall. we scored some taco bell & laura get pissed off that some store wouldn't let her return a shirt which they claimed was worn but wasn't. ouch. i got a free gift certificate for express, which brightens up my life slightly, so we went there only to find that ehh, i didn't want anything. i pointed out that the mannequins they had were extremely tiny. laura says-
-well they're not that much bigger than u
-yeah they r, their legs r really tiny, ha, & my butt is definitely bigger than that
-*we turn away as she mumbles* wow, your butt really is big
-ha, what?
-ha, nothing
-dude, u totally just said 'wow, your butt really is big'
-ha, well
ha, so later i say this to cat & she says, it's always been big, i don't get why no one noticed before. & there u have it folks. there u have it indeed.

ay, so yeah, ha, laura also said, she was pregnant but she had a baby so she's not pregnant anymore, which was terribly profound, AND she cut off an ambulance. ha, then that same ambulence caught up to us at a stop light & laughed at how we hadn't gotten ahead in traffic at all. it was all really rather priceless.

i got some new pins for ma purse- including christina fucking applegate a la kelly bundy. that was amazing. amazing! dana was pleased

yeah, so thennn i came home & had cake cuz hey, it was my dad's birthday. yeah dad, way to go. and thennn, i finally got an idea of what was going on for once. overall, i suppose i am grateful, but hey, who even knows anymore.

oy, & yeah- as for today cat, sarah, & i rocked the fair. i gots me some asian. well, ok, i got a paper lantern & a henna tatoo. it means compassion... ha, yes that's the same thing i got last year as well, but at least it's on the other wrist. oh yeah, that's right. it was nice though. ha, & ay- we went on the scrambler & the lady arranged us in size order since inertia takes over hardcore & i was on the end which would have resulted in my having been mashed to pieces. she deemed me the smallest, ha, cat got mad. it was mad fun, sarah was terribly amused. then they went on some ride that shoots ya up into the air & i was like uhm how bout no. i took a picture instead. yeah man, good times.

& i really do enjoy evanescence. i know the radio mames them these days, which is unfortunate, but i enjoy their cd muchly. let's take a look at their latest single, shall we?

going under

now i will tell you what i've done for you
50 thousand tears i've cried
screaming deceiving and bleeding for you
and you still won't hear me
don't want your hand this time i'll save myself
maybe i'll wake up for once
not tormented daily defeated by you
just when i thought i'd reached the bottom
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through
i'm going under

blurring and stirring the truth and the lies
so i don't know what's real and what's not
always confusing the thoughts in my head
so i can't trust myself anymore
i'm dying again

i'm going under
drowning in you
i'm falling forever
i've got to break through

so go on and scream
scream at me i'm so far away
i won't be broken again
i've got to breathe i can't keep going under

holla back

oh & col- i've got something to mail u but i don't know ur home address- 1crazymonkey@yourmom.com
;)

ya know what's cool? sitting in traffic for nearly an hour & a half trying to make conversation with your boss. that's cool.

-i'd walk in the rain between the raindrops, bringing traffic to a halt-

BenNRoxie: i am angry sometimes
BenNRoxie: and when i get angry i break things

ryan has a guitar. here is where i hit on him:
ThatsASin (11:20:37 PM): yep... i'm playing it right this second
noel762 (11:21:02 PM): *plays with hair, cocks hip to side* heh...
noel762 (11:21:19 PM): oh really... *gets finger stuck, tugs at it, hoping he won't see*
ThatsASin (11:22:24 PM): haha
ThatsASin signed off at 11:40:56 PM.
ThatsASin signed on at 11:40:59 PM.
ThatsASin (11:41:24 PM): sorry' bout that
noel762 (11:41:24 PM): hey... welcome back
noel762 (11:41:27 PM): still got that guitar
noel762 (11:41:32 PM): haha
ThatsASin (11:41:36 PM): i guess i was playing guitar too hard and unplugged the phone line
noel762 (11:41:52 PM): ooh
noel762 (11:41:56 PM): well alright then ;-)
ThatsASin (11:42:34 PM): haha
ThatsASin (11:42:38 PM): actually, i think i stepped on it. but still
noel762 (11:42:41 PM): oh hush
ThatsASin signed off at 11:58:13 PM.
ThatsASin signed on at 11:58:18 PM.
ThatsASin (11:58:31 PM): sorry, that's the last time i do that, i swear
noel762 (11:58:52 PM): oh ryan, why must u rock so hard?
ThatsASin (11:59:48 PM): ha, it's just in my blood, i guess
ThatsASin (12:02:48 AM): but i've put the guitar away and moved back to my room
noel762 (12:03:14 AM): *cries silently*
noel762 (12:03:18 AM): ahh, well if u insist
ThatsASin (12:03:25 AM): yes, yes, i'm sorry
ThatsASin (12:03:32 AM): a man's gotta stop rocking sometime
noel762 (12:04:06 AM): no fair, no fair
yep, talent whore

PAYCE!!

but then i'd hafta move all the way to australia & come home once in a while so mom could do my laundry. -a true man in the making, my brother commenting on if he worked with the almight crocodile hunter

so apparently last night was one of my worst nights in the history of spelling, according to miss laura. so i spelled creme brulee wrong, ha, and probably still am... yeah, i knew that even as i was writing it, but:
1- who cares about the french?
2- most ppl dont know how to spell it anyway
3- who cares about the french?
so there.

our cable went out in zee storm this evening. my dad kept watching the tv's idle blue screen. oh father... there is more to life than tv. good god one should hope so.

today i've had that you got it (anything u want) song in my head. yeah roy. sing it.

& finally, the sad truth:
- oh but jeff, there is always mac & cheese
- If there's always mac and cheese, where is this mac and cheese now, Dana?

there may not be marriage & there may not be sex... but by god, they'll be dancing-george at the end of "my best friend's wedding". ha, might i add that this has been true of every gay man i have currently encountered. divas of the dance floor, yo

ok, so i had off today. aside from the fact that i was frickin' stranded, it was cool ...i guess. argh, boredom & i don't get along so well. & it's not like i could even idley eat since oh hey, we have no food. oy vey.

i gots me some dvds in zee mail today cuz i joined the columbia house club thingie, ha, for better or for worse. let me know if ur interested, cuz then we BOTH get cheap ones, ha! i just watched "my best friend's wedding". i had seen it yrs before & recalled liking it a lot... perhaps cuz i was diggin' the best friend of the time & it was relatable. which actually, is rather stupid reasoning cuz it's not like it ends well, nor was he getting married anytime soon. (don't wanna ruin the ending for those of u with virgin eyes) but yeah. in the scene where they're in the cazebo, her hair changes back & forth. pardon me editing, but uh, i caught u. also, i enjoy when they're talking about jello.
-jello?
-he's comfortable with jello
-i can be jello!
-crem brule can never be jello... YOU can never be jello!
bet good ol' mr cosby got a real kick outta that one, eh?

you suck at life if you cant appreciate "the wedding singer"-marina. amen sista, amen

hmm... so other than that, i attempted to get into watching "the real world" (oh yes, i was that bored)... but they're just a bunch of punks. so bleh. i also bummed some food over at the neighbors. i mean, they're having a party. it's not like i was all please sir, can i have some more? with big ol' puppy eyes & a tender accent or anything. i also took note of the fact that i seem to be losing weight. like i said, we have no food. i dunno how i feel about this though. i mean it's only a couple of pounds, but basically, i think my body is stealing it from my breasts. it could all just be in my head, granted, but alas this is my theory. ya see, i think my butt has stated it's claim as ghetto, so now my metabolism has decided to hate on my friends. what the h man? i can't afford such coercion. i am not a bustly female. ha, as i write this i can once again see cat laughing at me, cuz the word is busty not bustly, but bygones. bust off mis pechos metabolism... dammit

ha, & in similiar spirits, check this out. extemely profound indeed.

yep... so i have off tomorrow (today). i have no car. i have no place to be. everyone seems to be busy. TOYING WITH ME!!

so within the first 10 minute i'm working, 3 stupid girls come over to me. i suppose they were around 14 yrs old. the one comes up holding a fake peach in one hand, and an apple in the other. uhm, excuse me? are these real? she asked. yeah, i was so not in the mood for this & wasnt about to attempt to humor her.
-no, no they're not real.
-oh okay... cuz i was gonna say, if they're real then they're kinda stale
(fruit doesn't get stale...)
she then went to walk away, then turned back:
-oh, one more question- *holds her hand out to shake mine* would u like to be a part of the international friend organization?
-a part of what?
-the international friend organization
-well what are the reprecussions of joining your organization?
-uhm... i dunno
-is this one of those pass-it-on things or something?
-...it's an organization.
-oh... well ya know what, i bet the girl at the register would love to be your friend. her name's rebecca.
of course they went up to rebecca, only after one of the girls ran back to ask of my name. i referred her to my name tag.
rebecca shook the little freak's hand. she said they caught her off guard.
yeah, so... what was the point in this? who does that? a customer even asked me what they were doing. i suppose they were daring eachother & thought it was amusing, but they weren't even laughing. the girl i talked to was actually really good at keeping a straight face. if ur gonna be an idiot in public, have a good time with it at least. they just weren't funny. aiesh, what's with kids these days? *shakes head* shouldn't they be off experimenting with drugs or fire or something instead? craft stores are for old ladies.

lalala...
ha, ok, this is the lamest quiz ever. check out the grammar, it's quality.

-Strong and Funny-
You are very funny all histarical jokes. When you
give a joke you meen buisness. Good job!


How funny are you?
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heheh i bee funknee!!

heaven help us

the world is toying with me, it's true. yesterday on the way home, my beloved ghetto style car made some weird noise as if i had run over something, only i hadn't. then he started to smell. i was hoping it was someone else... but alas, when i got home my parents were like dude, how did this thing get you here? some belts broke, apparently. poor subey... he wants to keep going, he really does... but they're talking like this is the end. *gulp*

went to see 'the children of eden' last night & saw a bunch of theatre folk. ha, pic was god... can it possibly get any better than that? how to top this one... all the old people thought it was stellar alright. good job kids. a little churchie for me (ha, let us remember that it was in a church and about the bible), but good. i was glad to see that drew is still rockin' the sandals.

is anyone else's webmail still totally f'd? i mean, i'd assume... but perhaps it's just mine? i dunno, but i haven't been able to check my ic email in days. wth

on the plus side, degree navigator actually worked. i mean granted it still froze about 8 times, but i got stuff changed. i actually got a park class- intro to media aesthetics & analysis? it wouldn't let me into anything else. i'm trying to gear things to be communications minded. ha, i still have no politics classes, says the politics major. but i do have one about law, although it's business. oh bother. but yeah, i'll be done by 1 on fridays, so that's coo. i've got 6 classes right now... i don't think i'm gonna stick with that, but yeah.

ya know what's f'd? that new show with the gay guy & the bachelors- all of which who are not gay. that's messed up. ha, & i can't imagine the straight guys who volunteered for that ever living it down. he's so not invited to polker night. *belches...scratches* damn straight. oh larry, what were u thinking?

...why larry u ask? yeah, i dunno

ya know, a blog lets ppl who are no longer talking to you keep up with your life. perhaps they look to see if they gain a mention...cuz i know i look for such things in the blogs of others. but ha! that's not how it works. it's like how u keep ppl on ur buddylist whom u don't talk to anymore. ya still read their away messages, but u'd never IM them.... & yet u still keep them there. i must have like 30 ppl from hs on my list that i've never even talked to. & oh u know u do it too, we all do it. IM has spawned the art of cyber stalking. yesterday for instance, tom weslowski's friend IMed me under his name & was all who's this? & i was like dude, i haven't even talked to tom in 2 yrs, who are u? gotta love the IMs that start out asking u for identification. u IMed me doofus.

heh, doofus... a goofy movie still rocks

alright, work beckons. here's a quiz. i was rather surprised to get this result, but whatever. i suppose it's better than it saying ur confined to life in a cave... ha, i just wouldn't say that i'm hopeless. there is always hope. without hope there is no tomorrow... & apparently, no flirting. boo ya


Hopeless Flirt


What Kind of FLIRT are you?
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...& a lot is 2 words dammit! mrs ericsson taught me right