yeah, so today was rah for a multitude of reasons... RAH!

so what the h is up with the world these days? a gal can't even turn on la tele for a scripted distraction. air strike? err... oh bushy, what r u getting us into...

yesterday i dl'd a bunch of sarah maclachlan songs. i'm not a huge fan, i usually find her to b a bit too lilith, but ya know how sometimes u feel like an artist is speaking the song of ur soul suddenly? well i was inspired to relish in miss maclachlan's world. "possession" is a quality song.... but i'm feelin' "sweet surrender" as well, i dunno, i'm just likin' it suddenly. word.

kiehl's advice: chill the fuck out

ben wants to b a bad ass, but he's not. he has a comfortable bed. ha, i feel like i get way too up on ppl's bed's sometimes. i dunno, first i get tired of standing- i randomly sit in the hall sometimes- & then i'm like ehh, i'll just lie down. i dunno, i feel as if i've become more brash & sass since arriving here. not that the bed thing is particularly related, but yeah. oh, & no shoes on the bed, what IS that?

ahh, what the hell, let's throw in some sm-

Sweet Surrender

it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I've left behind me
is a cold room
I've crossed the last line
from where I can't return
where every step I took in faith
betrayed me
and led me from my home

and sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

you take me in
no questions asked
you strip away the ugliness
that surrounds me
are you an angel
am I already that gone
I only hope
that I won't disappoint you
when I'm down here
on my knees

and sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

sweet
sweet
sweet surrender
is all that I have to give

and I don't understand
by the touch of your hand
I would be the one to fall

I miss the little things
oh I miss everything

it doesn't mean much
it doesn't mean anything at all
the life I left behind me
is a cold room

rah.