my big fat oof dilemma

after topical conversations with em back at school and with sarah now at home, the post-graduation dilemmas have been spending a good deal of time nipping at me heels. while i recognize that everything doesn't need to be etched in stone once the diploma is handed over, i still feel the need to get my rear in gear, as they say.

but where to even begin? i definitely enjoyed being in dc, and i think i'd like to live there again at some point, but i was kinda thinking to do something not east coast for the time being. there seems to be a massive migration to austin, but texas? uhm, red state whaaaat. plus, the idea of being land-locked seems so foreign and somewhat scary to me.

i think that i am going to apply for teach for america, but i'm certainly not 100% sold at this point. the idea of doing it in dc though, and taking classes at american to get my masters while doing it? pretty hot and tempting alright...

and w/ who yo? i had always imagined this after college time to be spent with a group of gal pals in a pad of vibrant colors and laughs over icecream till dawn. i dunno though, i'm certainly not going to let anything hold me back, but i also never expected to have a boy thrown into the mix either. there is much excitement/decision making which lies ahead, as well as great debts to pay off and a severe lack of funds to do so with.

"vacation," eh? suuuure. anyone have any great moments of clarity lately? lay 'em on me, killers.

student loans?

soooo... what's the deal with all this refinancing jazz? help me out, kids. i feel like i looked it up once before and it could only be done if you had loans from different lenders. did i make this up? should it be done? has anyone done it? why or why not?
please, indulge. i'd like info on how to not be more than 20 grand in debt, thnx.

a night alone when i'm at home... RHYMING

back when i was a dancer, i totally wanted to be a rockette. i always forget about this until i see them again around the holidays.
even if i were still dancing though- 1) i don't think i'd feel that way now and 2) i'm not tall enough
looks like we can scratch that one of the list, eh?

well here's a survey from dell, because what else is there to do on a sunday night at home:

1)Using your current initials, choose a different name for yourself:
daniella nivea malonaise... fanciful, no?

2) If you were born outside of your era, when would you want to be born?
i vary on how i feel about this one, it shows in my halloween costume choices. ie flapper last year, 1960s housewife this year...

3) If you ran a store, what would you sell/have?
hmm... little crafty things. it seems to be all that i know, store-wise.

4) What part in a movie would you love to play?
the smart and actually funny gal pal. none of that quiet or dumb crap.

5) In your opinion, why do people suck?
because they make generalizations HEY-OHHHHH

6) If you had your own state, what would you put on your new quarter?
well i suppose it would have to be representative of my state, and if it were mine, then it'd probably be something i did to get it. or ya know, chocolate, whatev.

7) What's the oldest article of clothing you own?
hmm... own & still wear are two very different things. i think my green zip up sweater that everyone hates from 8th grade may be the only thing that still gets some legitimate play.

8) What piece of furniture have you replaced the most?
uhhh i haven't done much of that. dresser, maybe?

9) What instrument do you wish you could be more than great at?
sort of playing the piano was never really my goal... so i'll go with piano for $500, alex.

10) Record, tape or CD?
records look hot, but come now

11) What do you think would be the best concert ever?
ever? snap. probably like, that mtv music video awards where britney & n*sync appeared, lolol

12) What is the best part of your favorite movie?
although i wouldn't necessarily deem this my favorite movie at this particular point in my life, i always very much fancied when max slapped the lester mascot across the face, spinning his head piece around while demanding, "beat it, doofus!" in "a goofy movie"

13) What do you think is the most over-rated candy ever?
i heard take-five was awesome, i heard it was gross, i thought it was none of the above.

14) If you were writing out your will, who would you give your CD collection to?
hmm... well cat is one of the only ppl i know who is still actively buying and listening to cds. i think she may be the only one who would appreciate the mandy moore and spice girls incidents.

15) If you could only debate two topics the rest of your life, what would they be?
yikes, just 2? why not debate who ever made up such a stupid mandate? freedom of speech, fool!!

16) Out of your friends, who would you say you are most jealous of, artistically?
hmm... i have a lot of creative pals, i can't say that i'm jealous though. we're all talented in our own right.

17) Most jealous of...intellectually?
same deal. there's probabably something i'd steal and make a super potion out of from all the gals in my discussion group, and even then, my list of ingredients would only be beginning.

18) What do you collect?
i have an informal yet rather large coin collection.

19) What is broken that you have, that you wish was fixed?
my fake eyelashes. where do they keep disappearing to? and why did one end up all bent up?

20) What do you do when you're home sick?
in hs, it seemed like jenny jones was the only thing ever on. now? probably just sleep, drink tea with honey, watch a movie (and think about good times had with j jones)

21) Current favorite article of clothing?
probably any pair of comfy pants could rock this train

22) Line from the last thing you wrote for someone?
i don't even know the last thing i wrote for someone. if it can count as an IM then it was probably something like "home whaaaaaaat"

23) A famous person you have met:
a bunch of senators, but who cares about politics grossss
ha, so how about peter tork? (one of the monkees)

24) Favorite way to waste time?
"dear internet..."

25) Last thing you bought yourself?
morning burst facewash- who can resist an inviting warm glow?

*aaaand scene*
hope there's some amusement to be found somewhere... or if nothing else, ketchup. by george, i hope there's ketchup.

what's this? i can link to myself?!

I Like It When You Right Click Me
featured in Buzzsaw Haircut whaaaaat

(you might want to left click the link though, just a thought)

ahh, cortaca sons of bitches whaaaat!!!1!

so that's basically the jist of what i had the pleasure of waking up to this morning. and what do ya know, we lost. way to go bombers, way to go *clap clap*
nah, i did go to the game for a bit, i'm not gonna try and play that game. i'm not above collegiate social life (yet).

it just occurred to me that i had yet to add a link to my halloween pics. here's a picture of the boy & i lookin' "fahncy" for the fancy bday for emily & steve last night. you won't find pics from that in webshots since i'm basically at my posting limit, but yeah, enjoy what you can get to:



ps i try to keep this thing all newsy and informed and not rah rah rah my life or gushy or what have you, but i really like this boy. that's just something that needs to be said (more).

And tomorrow we might not be together
I’m no prophet, I don’t know natures way
So I’ll try to see into your eyes right now
And stay right here, ’cause these are the good old days.

maureen's got a new book out, eh?

are men necessary? asks the often quoted (by me, that is) ny times op-ed writer. google "what's a modern girl to do?" and you'll be sure to come across the much talked about excerpt. dowd challenges feminism, but in her own humored tone. love it or hate it, i think it's worth taking a look... & perhaps more relatable than many hardliners would like to admit.

a clamouring for compassion?

i can recall an unmentionable once stating that the most memorable beautiful eyes he had ever seen were those of a middle eastern girl on the cover of national geographic some years back. surely an image we have all seen, here is the updated version to include the then and now:



in any case, when clicking on the child health site, as i often do, i noted that out of the 2 pakistani children pictured, one has rather fair skin and once again, striking light eyes.



is it an incorrect cultural assumption of me to assume that the majority of people from this region have dark eyes? or is it that our media is using these images when looking to instigate action and empathy from its audience?
these images are undeniably striking, and while yes, in each of them the children featured are beautiful, are they geared to please caucasion eyes? i certainly can't help but wonder...