there's a reason that felicity got cancelled

so i'm suddenly thinking about grad school. tfa got me thinking about how having a master's in education could be really helpful. i got shot down for tfa ps, which overall, is probably a good thing. jess didn't get it either and i toootally thought she would. who knows what they're looking for, especially when they came after me. whaaatever. stacey and kim got it though, so congrats to them :)

but yeah, with this rejection came the 'wow, you really have no idea what you're doing.' i keep encountering a bunch of nonprofit jobs that sound really cool, but require a master's in public health or something or the sort. i do believe that i'm interested in health education, but i suppose it's all about the benjamins. i'm already way in debt, and i know that this would fall on my shoulders.

of course, part of the allure of this is that i could do it in texas, still be with the boy, and not feel like i was compromising my own goals- all at the saaame time.

this is really hard, though. i don't want to be felicity, but i don't want to lose someone i love arbitrarily or out of sheer pride. oh, & i also don't want to be a grown-up.

booooooo.