and he looked glooorious

i have not been to work since wednesday, and oh yes, it has been glorious. i was supposed to be going home for easter, which is why i took off, but things worked out a little less then planned on that one. so here's a little insider information. i don't mean to disappoint my i wish i was working there! well wishers, but i must say that i am envious of ppl having Awesome! internship experiences. i do not feel that i am in this category, because to me, i go to work. i'm not even sure what it is that i'm learning, per se. perhaps writing news will help me be a better copy editor... perhaps one day when i ever attempt to use web design for something again, i will remember some of what i have gained from this "experience."

i dunno, i suppose i just find it hard not to bear a bit of resentment for what is billed as a chance to "learn the skills needed to fight for equality and women's empowerment" when i do not feel as if this is what the program truly stresses. yes, i have seen some senators, and that's amusing. and yes, non stop excitement is not a realistic goal, but seriously now, what makes other ppl's job sites so awesome and mine so lacking? perhaps what i am learning is how to make the best of an experience which has proved, thus far, to be less than i had hoped for.

but maybe all of the blame cannot be placed on the program, maybe i am the problem. i am used to being ridiculously busy, but it's not like i don't ask for things to do when things get dull. i am not afraid to set lofty goals for myself, and somehow, i just don't feel as if cleaning out a closet or looking up phone numbers will bring me any real ground in "the fight." perhaps the problem resides in my not really knowing what i want to do with myself, but knowing far too many things which i do not wish to pursue. this too, however, is valuable.

hmm... so, how about this, i like to write, entertain, research...
blog, we may be soulmates.

& if not, well gee, reality tv might be bringin' home my bacon some time soon.